feel'n it (trying at least)

I love these guys below. They put everything they got into this and make 4 minutes of greatness- they are all in, you can see it, you can feel it. Since I discovered this clip I've been watching it every morning. It reminds me not to be so scared of what I truly care about.
I love and hate art. Mostly I hate it. But when an artist seeks. A search where they forget themselves and dive in and give the art all they have to give, this stuff I love.
I try to do this myself but have fallen way short. The last thing I felt good about was my thesis project two years ago. I gave the project everything I had to give. I made mistakes but it was amazing. Maybe the art sucked, I don't know, I just did it. I had a vision of what I wanted and I went for it, I think my teachers thought I was nuts. When I had my opening I knew what these musicians felt. The most satisfying air I've breathed yet.
I don't miss school but I miss the professors, Michael Roth, Larry Sultan, Tammy Rae Carland, Sue Ciriclio, Chris Johnson, Goldberg, Abner Nolan, Todd Hido, John Wilkins. These people who have dedicated their lives to art, knowledge, searching and sharing it with others. This kind of energy. This I miss. Making it up myself is just really hard.